Psalm 51 is a heavy psalm. I don’t know where I read this from, or if I did read it somewhere but this Psalm somehow echoes that feeling David may have felt after he learned how sinful he has become and how he has refused to even see it.
What is a broken spirit like? How broken can you be before you can say your are broken before God? Can you mend that brokenness?
A part of me is aching right now. I am broken. I can see the shattered pieces of myself all around me but I try to hide the pieces from Him and from myself. It’s frightening, the evil I sense and sometimes feel in me. I just want to be pure and clean and whole before Him. I need to feel that.
But the depth of loneliness and sadness I feel right now, as I hide from Him, is killing me. Is this what it means to be broken?
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