Old Thoughts, New Perspective

I am writing without a script now.

I spent most of this morning reading a booklet I got from The Good News Magazine. It is all about Christ and how true He is.

When I was in college, I have come to a point in my life when I had started to disbelieve the existence of God.

Without God, all this nonsense about being good and trying to live a decent life is quite useless...

It was in the summer of my sophomore year, unfortunately, when I started a barrage of arguments for atheism.

Then, two years later. My life was suddenly turned upside down. The tumbling it took was such that I eagerly contemplated suicide.

Then, God intervened. He made me feel His presence, His hand in every aspect of my life that I was left in no doubt about His existence.

God exists. I was too blind and ignorant to see it when He was really everywhere around me.

The next round of trouble came to focus though.

How about Jesus?

what is the role that He plays in my life? Did He exist? Is He God?

When I was young, I used to have a crush on the child Jesus. When I grew up, easter films on Jesus' death made me cry.

Howeverm Jesus remained a hazy historical figure often used to earn movie bucks and guilt trip non-practicing Christian.

Until several Bible courses through unexpected sources made me realize that I was, once more, wrong.

Now, with this Booklet, I now believe that Jesus is God.

That is progress, right?

I believe in God. I also believe Jesus is a God?

Now, the new questions is: What is Jesus' connection or relationship to God?

And no, I do not want the traditional answer, the ones men made to make things easier. No, I will wait for God to lead me to the answer.

He never failed me.

My life, all along, is an interconnected course or study on God and Christ.

And yes, I have opened my mind to all possibilities, my ear for any answers and my heart for accepting whatever He reveals.

To God be the glory.