Sunday, November 25, 2012

He Broke My Heart Many Times


He broke my heart many times.
He took away my toys-
     Trampled on my palace walls.
     Destroyed my prince and princess
     And smote my mighty fortress.

He broke my heart many times.
He annihilated my room -
     Demolished my CD stacks,
     Knocked down the many shelves,
     And threw out all my books.

He broke my heart many times.
He crushed my little home -
     Pulled apart its foundations,
     Smash its ramparts upon itself,
     And burned down everything else.

He broke my heart many times.
Until I fell apart and found myself in His arms –
     Broken heart made whole
     And stonelike no more. 

                           - written on November 21, 2012, 08:50 PM

Sunday, November 18, 2012

I am Pro-Life

   from http://www.spiritualquestionshelpline.com



The November 15 FOTM reflection sort of "affected" me in an unexpected way.

I have never really been an active supporter of the pro-life group when it came to the RH Bill but this bowled me over.

Wow. This is just so terrible. I mean have we come to this? Have we really? And how could I care less? How could I have been so tolerant and so open-minded about all this?

RH Bill has never been a personal issue or dilemma for me. I was more the "educate the teens, make them feel loved" advocate. When you ask me what my opinions are regarding RH Bill, I would say, "I do not know enough to even make an opinion". In short, I do not really much care to know enough and make an opinion.

The Roman Catholic church is very distinct on its pro-life stand but I did not want to be judgmental about people and non-believers but yes, we as believers should know and should take a stand against the perpetuation of wickedness in our midst. And if the world condemns us for our beliefs and faithfulness to the Word, we simply had to remember that Christ has already overcome the world. :)

I have just noted 1 Corinthians 6:12 and sort of applied it to other aspects of my own life but the verse applies to this as well.

Here's a look at the November 15 Facts of the Matter reflection:

November 15: Could This Be Next?

"'Dear Mom:

'Gosh, can you believe it's 2023 already?… It seems just yesterday I was sitting in first grade celebrating the century change. I know we haven't really chatted since Christmas. Sorry. Anyway, I have some difficult news and I really didn't want to call and talk face-to-face. Ted's had a promotion and I should be up for a hefty raise this year if I keep putting in those crazy hours. You know how I work at it. Yes, we're still struggling with the bills.

'Timmy's been 'okay' at kindergarten although he complains about going. But then, he wasn't happy about day care either, so what can I do? He's been a real problem, Mom. He's a good kid, but quite honestly, he's an unfair burden at this time in our lives. Ted and I have talked this through and through and finally made a choice. Plenty of other families have made it and are much better off.

'Our pastor is supportive and says hard decisions are necessary. The family is a 'system' and the demands of one member shouldn't be allowed to ruin the whole. He told us to be prayerful, consider all the factors, and do what is right to make the family work. He says that even though he probably wouldn't do it himself, the decision is really ours. He was kind enough to refer us to a children's clinic near here, so at least that part's easy.

'I'm not an uncaring mother. I do feel sorry for the little guy. I think he overheard Ted and me talking about 'it' the other night. I turned around and saw him standing at the bottom of the step in his PJ's with the little bear you gave him under his arm and his eyes sort of welling up. Mom, the way he looked at me just about broke my heart. But honestly I believe this is better for Timmy, too.

'It's not fair to force him to live in a family that can't give him the time and attention he deserves. And please don't give me the kind of grief Grandma gave you over your abortions. It is the same thing, you know. We've told him he's just going in for a vaccination. Anyway, they say it is painless. I guess it's just as well you haven't seen that much of him.

Love to Dad:

Jane'"[172]

"You shall not murder." (Exodus 20:13)

The annotation states this as the source: First Things, page 84, Number 85

For more information, check: www.factsofthematter.org or download the Bible Explorer for your offline reference.

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Tuesday, November 13, 2012

In Quiet Praise

They praise You in song,
In the wondrous beat of gongs.

They praise You with drums
With the wild, ascent of sounds.

But here I am
In a church corner,
My knees bent down,
And my head bent low-

As I whisper my gratitude
With all that I am, in quiet praise.

                         - undated, but written several months ago

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Someday


Someday,
I want to write a song
Telling You how much I love You.

Someday,
I want to be able to sing
Of a love from within me
That overwhelms me completely.

Someday,
I want to be able to fondly claim
That my heart is consumed
By the passion You inspire.

For now however,
I pray,
Let me feel Your love
That I may love You

Someday…

- written on June 2, 2012, 10:07 PM


Thursday, September 27, 2012

Fragile Faith

My faith is weak. Tested, it crumbles and everything falls apart.

Lord, give me a stronger faith. Make me believe that You will provide for our needs as we need them. Make me understand and believe that even if things go wrong, You will see me through it all.

In You, everything will be alright. That despite my weaknesses, my sinfulness... I am still loved and forgiven.

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Away from the World

Sometimes, life gets too cluttered with non-essentials that we often need to step back for a change in perspective.

I have started (albeit half-heartedly) this retreat three weeks ago and today, I am on it's third week. I pray that He will sustain me and keep me faithful in this particular program.

I know, I am one of those types who can't keep things going after the first flame of passion has petered out but this journey is not something that I willfully started. He led me to this particular walk and I expect He will keep pulling me until it is completed.

If you want to try this retreat (pray first and ask for strength from Him, we need it)... just visit this link...Online Retreat for Everyday Life. It's a 34-week retreat patterned after the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius of Loyola.

Before you begin, open your mind and hearts and trust Him who led You to this retreat.




Sunday, August 5, 2012

The State of the Fallen

Dark. It is very dark where I am today.

There is no visible light.

I wanted to reach out but I am afraid of what I might touch in the darkness.

I wanted to call out, but I am afraid that I would lead them to my corner of this darkness.

So I lay still, shivering, huddled in one corner...

Waiting...
Just waiting....